being woke up by phone call again. nb!!!
%$@#@!#!~~!!!
3rd time already in a row this week man.

1st is stephie. alright.
she's sweet lar.
jus concern after my broke off.
forgiven.

2nd is my mama's friend.
ring my hse up like her hse had caught fire or kena rape.
(sorry, tink no one wanna rape her oso.)
tok to me rudely on the phone some more when i ask her who she is.

"i'm XX *which her name shall nt to be declare* LAH!"
"..."
"what's ur mother hp no. ar?"

knn. call up to ask this. i've to climb down all the way from my double-decker bed to ans her stupid phone call, coz the phone is ringing NON-STOP and it fucking irritate me.
tho got something urgent, so forgave her.

mama reach home, told me...
"oh.. she called and said she got a set of VCD wanna lent me watch. y?"

-_-" k, my mum is innocent.
but tat aunty...
MOTHER FUCKER! CB.

this time rd is constance. ARGH!
asking me whether my other OL is turning up for this meeting/trainning this saturday a not.
damnit.
i slept at 4am due to discussion w/ naz, waiting for my hair to dry.
stuck my arse on the chair, and jus cldnt slp.
then woke up at 9 or 10am... oh... i cldnt rmb.
SIGH.

i suspect i've insomnia.
and a serious SLEEPING DISORDER.
sigh sigh sigh.

btw...~
i received another gift from sweetie, eileen.
guess wat she bought me?
a thong! hahaha. so cute lar.
and a bangle.

hee.
i'm a happy girl now. =D
tho today plan kinda ruined... :(
clubbing anyone?

sorry, i only got 4 photos for my camp which happened on the 12th and 13th of may.
which is pathetic. i noe.
btw, thanks naz for supplying the photos to me.

here they are:

Left: connie, farhana, haja, me
We're on the bus!

Beginning journey for Group 5
Alright, this picture was taken b4 one of the grp is being breakup and more members joined in our family :)

present to u: haja, connie, farhana, naz and me (not forgetting, alfri at the back of connie :P)

Mighty Group 5!
taken in a rush of a "fucking bitch" after cleaning the "cook house".
sherilyn face being blocked.

i felt so good living at nessa's hse.
so quiet and cosy... relaxing.
and u're all alone.
left w/ onli me and her ard.
her family members all went to work.

woke up in da morning like 11am.
do nth than slack.
she let me watch 2 movie.
lie with me. a R21 movie w/ lotsa sex scene.
wooo... the couple so HOT. =X
another one is none other than the SCARY MOVIE 4.
which is FUCKING LAME i wld say. haha.

i dun feel like leaving at all.
however i felt so handicapped w/o my phone...
and the postman is gonna deliver my SIM today.
sigh... forced myself to leave.

i'm so tired now.
and i din go to work... =X woopppsss.

sign off,
BIG PANDA.

orientation leader meeting yday.
i'm one of the committee member!
so glad.
which means i'll hafta in charge of orientation leader (OL).
and i'm gonna had hell lotsa fun.
hurray!

i <3 NAfa

went to work and i lost my phone IN THE TOILET.
god damnit.
i was so shock... tat i cldnt react.
dunno to luff or wat.

haha. keep calm... and then call up to suspend the line.
phew.
i was too shock to react... too shock to cry or watsoever.
i luffed. so crazy.
i only rmb ying ying's phone no. amg all the friends.
ok. i dun memorize phone no.
so i called ying up to get nessa's hp no.

crush over mummi's hse until now.
luckily she's back from thailand already.
thanks to her.
if i'll hafta go home man.

later on, i call home not to let mama worried.
she said someone found my phone!
and she's gonna get it for me at yew tee.
wooo~~~
i finally met one kind hearted soul.

alright... and now i'm still slacking at nessa's hse.
great.
tink i shd get my ass off the bed and head home now.
b4 the m1 customer service officer come knocking on my hse to deliver my SIM card to me.

ciao!
love <3
do tag more kz.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

my mood is getting much much more better than yday.
i've gained back my appetite!
ate my fav. mcwing. =D
which means that becky had fully recovered.

i'm surprised that it's so speedy.

not bcoz i'm heartless or curel. if not, i wldn't sob like hrs in the toilet.
and use like half-roll of toilet paper.
hey. i'm a human being... i've feelings.
i reckon whether he is one a not.
mayb he's a reborn chao tur tur... an cold-blooded animal reborn into human.
tat's y he behave like that. nvm. forgive him.
and he already killed the soft-hearted becky by stabbing rite into her heart w/ his cold reply on the phone and 100% bo-chap-his-gf attitude.
1st time seeing such heartless person.
man~ jus my luck.

and knn...
he better dun hurt another person.
not every gal can take it.
wat goes ard, comes ard.
pls tink twice.

most imptly,
thanks a lot to...
ppl who made me luff..
ppl who lent me their listening ears...
ppl who console me...
ppl who gave me support...

BIG BIG KISS FOR U GUYS OK!!!!!!!!! LOVE <3

especially...
my mama, bee, stephie.. and nessa?

coz she's back fr thailand already!!!!!!
HAHA.
tho during my 1 and a half day suffering period she's not there.
i noe when she found out... she'll b cursing n swearing w/ me.
and then...
we'll go n look for thailand handsome dude together!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

she got my birkenstock slippers...
YEAH~~~
finally got birkenstock... hehehehe..
thanks a lot sweetie.

and yawn..
i'm tired...
update again soon~
hafta attend meeting for orientation stuff..
then rush to work.

Tataz!

Unforgivable Sinner - by lene marlin

Kinda lose your sense of time'
Cause the days don't matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope she knows you tried

Follows you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
'Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see

You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner

You've been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won't ever be the same
Someone cries and you're to blame

Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you'll defeat
The picture you see it won't disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or her voice you hear

You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner

Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground
Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground - hit the ground

You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner

It's nice to know you were there.
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
(sorry dude, i stand up again)
And letting me know we were done

a new turning point.
a new life.
not a bad thing at all.

recently found out a new activity which i can engage :) clubbing.
widen my network, i shd i shd.
see more ppl.
since i dun haf any more curfew.
y not jus enjoy myself to the max.

thanks to ur plans and trap.
instead of miserable, i discovered more abt myself.
and found out tat there're act ppl who realli care and concern for me.
thanks guys.

esp mama...
she's the mighty one. really.
when i came out fr toilet w/ bee, i saw her watery eyes.
she's so dead worried for me, i noe.
after tat, we really had a longgggggg good chat.

umm.. i dunno whether i expect this will happened a not.
but which is good lar.
he let me see his true color. good.
i'm not dumb either.
i noticed he changes here and there.
jus tat i chose not to believe and let it be simply coz i trust him too much.
foolish becky, but nvm, she learned!
he sounded agitated on the phone tells everything.
dun lie.

nvm. treat it as a experience.
now i noe more abt guys.
mama, peeps and me came out w/ an "analysis report".
haha. wat a say.
oo.. which i shall not declare here.
coz i haf no prove, saying out makes me a bitch, ppl tink i cant leave w/o him. (oh pls!)
but i tink it most probably works like tat.

i dun hate him.
i'll carry on working at mcd.
i'm his subordinate; he's is my manager.
kp things clear.
ppl pls dun make fun w/ me n him k.

however, i will quit once i found a new and stable job which is much related to my field.
tat's after sometime.
dun b mistaken, not avoiding him.
which is pointless.

i going into year 2 in few weeks time.
more challenging things waiting for me.
no time to lose!
becky's on the move!!!

bee: sorry for recalling ur past, makes u so depress. my bad my bad. thanks for crying w/ me. haha. we're so silly. they dun worth us crying. sorry that i made u and friend quarrel when u're trying to protect me. dun worry k. thanks babe!

steph: thanks for rushing down after work. thanks for hugs and advice. i really feel more comfort after tat. :)

being slacking the whole afternoon.
tinking wat to do to my off day which is tml~ HURRAY!
i'm gonna do some shopping... weee~
i wan a new set of bikini!

LOVELY SUMMER heating town!!!

sentosa on this sat anyone?
shall go and find my kaki, jennifer, my ex-bodyshop colleague a.k.a my friend now.
pray hard tat she's not working.

ooo...
and sweet is going for his NS check up tml.
hoho.
all the best to him.
the onli cfm thing we noe is he's overweight issue. teehee. =X

last but not least,







this is why japan mcdonald sales is doing better than singapore.

yooooo~
i'm back.

ppl is grumbling tat i'm more interested in friendster than blogging.
haha. quite true. =X
i actually love friendster than blog coz can see more pics of others mah... hehe..
I'M SO KPO :P

it has been a real BUSY week for me...
work like hell... pay like fuck as usual. but fun lar.
chill w/ my friends... oh~ i miss dem!!!
spend more time w/ sweet.
then went for CAMP!!!
yesyes! it's a orientation leader CAMP!

but it's jus 2days 1nite.
nth much lar...
nvr get to pitch tent oso...~
slept in dom instead.
there's ppl who cook for us.~~
sian.

kinda bored.
i preferred those OBS kind.~
shit in forest, bath w/ sea water, get dirty.
really muz depend on nature. COOL.
i like :)
tink i shd go for NS. haha! i referring to those surviving course onli. teehee.
errrr... but if ask me to kill a chic by twisting their head...umm.. no tks.

i heard rumours said camp food sucks.
until today i got to try out the food.
oh it proven it's SUCKS TO THE CORE.
and we actually call up for mcd delivery during midnite. LOL.
sounds like havin small party uh.
there's music, ppl sharing ghost stories(i hate!:S), gossiping... chilling.

yes! i love my group 5!
guys and gals united as one.
with leadership and trust in each other, sportsmanship!
but y this will nvr happen in the class i'm in?
and then we'll haf a better learning environment.
rather than competitive ones, which is tiring. sigh.

no pics to post.
coz still waiting for my friend to send me.

ok..
i promise will update soon kz!
hee..ciao~